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Starvation is Beauty in Madness

11 May
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1. Age: 15

2. Height: 5'3

3. Current Weight (CW): ahh keeps changing

4. Highest Weight (HW): 140 (i gained alot from the medicine i had to take)

5. Lowest Weight (LW): 90

6. Goal Weight (GW): 87

7. Gender: female

8. BMI: keeps getting lowerr =)

9. What ED do you have? anorexia, ednos

10. Self diagnosed or diagnosed by a doctor? by a doctor

11. History of your ED: (you may write several paragraphs if you like): well it started when i broke my leg. (i was eight) i was in a wheelchair for a loongg time and i gain alot of weight. i was a cheerleader for the Dolls and once i was back on the squad after my leg was healed, i noticed i had gotten alot bigger than the other girls. i cried and cried and cried and i would not eat. all i knew was that food made you fat so i would do whatever i could do to not eat. i wouldnt eat breakfast of lunch and since i still had cheerleading every night mon.-fri., i just told my mom i eat dinner with the other girls. on the weekend, when it was time to eat lunch or dinner i would tell my mom i was going to a friend and stay out side. if my mom made me eat i would feel so sick to my stomach because i havent eaten in so long that i would throw up. eventually, that just became habbit. the summer before 6th grade i was diagnosed with anarexia and i was forced to become normal weight again. stayed just slightly underweight until the middle of 7th grade when i was also diagnosed with hypothyroidism. which makes you gain weight and so does the medicine. i am not in 9th grade and it is almost the end of the year and i have been back to my old habbits ever since although i was still in the higher portion of average weight. i am now much lower again alother not at anorexic bmi, i almost am and most deffinalty have the mind set of anorexia =(

12. (optional) A typical day for me: wake up, babysit my 6week old cousin for an hour, go to school, come back to my aunts house, babysit for 2 more hours, go home, work out, shower, bed.

13. What are you looking for?(Support for recovery? Tips? Friends? Etc.): just people to talk to going threw the same thing as me who wont judge me or try to change me.

In Depth

How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?:

Do you throw up your food on occasion?:
yeahh. if i eat.

Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?:

Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?:

Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?:

Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?:
yess this is my first one and its been like 4 days so far

Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?:
if i bindge

Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?:

Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?:

Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?:

Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?:
no. why would i?

Body Image Q's

Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?:

What part of your body would you change?:
hips, thighs, arms

On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?:

Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?:
At times

Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?:


Do you think you eat healthy enough?:
most of the time

Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?:

Fat grams?:


Are you often tired/fatigued?:

Do you feel more energised after eating food?:

Do you eat meat?:
only chicken

Do you eat your food in a certain way? ie cut it up into small pieces, etc.:

Do people tell you you look sick or famished?:

Have you ever thrown up blood?:

Is your heart bpm above 49?:
Not sure

Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?:
yes ( i love it. that means you lost like 3 or 4 pounds in a short period of time!! lol)